Sigh.. i decided liaoz.. if wan to write from day 1 very long.. and i forgot some of the details liaoz.. so its ok.. just start from present lor..

today i very moody.. very very sad.. i always think that i drag him down.. sigh.. why is life like that? he can lead a very luxury life w/o me.. w/o bb..

i always wonder .. is it wrong decision to keep bb.. sigh sigh sigh.. he say no more sigh.. if not life wont get better.. but i just can't help it..

why must money make the world go round?? why w/o money cannot survive??

grace keep telling me.. happy mummy will have happy baby.. how to be happy like that??