Couldnt stop crying last nite.. den HB still raise voice at me :(

I also dunno what i am upset abt.. probably i feel that i just dun deserve and not worthy of his love.. cos my past is just so dark and i hate it. i hate the day i make decision.. i hate tat why am i so native to make such decision tat effects my life and my tots so much now.. :(

Wat HB said is true.. we haven married for 1 month.. i think so much.. why? cos i am scared.. very scared.. i wonder if he is proud to have me as his wife? i am proud to have him as my husband.. so much so that i wan to show the whole world.. but i can't!!!! cant!!!

and am soooooo much bothered by the fact that he dun wear his wedding ring to work... WTF right? for me no choice.. i can't put on liaoz.. if i continue wearing.. i can't take off later when go operation den jialat liaoz.. all i wan is his promise that our ROM ring.. he has to wear it 24/7.. is it too much to ask for??

maybe to him its just a ring what's the big deal.. to me its not! it means a lot.. it means how much committed u are .. how proud u are to show the token that ur love one has given to you.. i dunno what does he think so..

now it seems so that i am a little girl who cries becos no one lunch with me.. that's not TRUE!!!

i cried is becos i am depressed!! depressed abt life! depressed why did i have to go thru or go back slightly to get out of everything and lead a new life? why why why?