Well i feel that i am very selfish..

HB wanted to irc last nite... he asked me permission.. but i wasn't very happy cos we dun have enuff time with each other already.. and he still wans to sit infront of the comp.... but i feel very bad.. like i controlling him like that.. i dun like that kind of feeling.. i told him go lor.. but he din seem comfortable when he went to the computer room too.. i feel so bad..

I miss him!! Darling.. if ever 1 day u got a chance to read this.. i really feel bad.. am not trying to control u.. but am scared.. very very scared of history repeating itself.. esp since i am going thru the process now.. and the tots of it haunts me badly.. really badly..