At last the big day is over.. Left only with memories.. now is the time to work hard and make things work and going..

My feelings now.. i also dunno how to describe..

HB work late work hard to earn more $$ to support BB and me.. and it just started this week only.. BUT!! i can't take it liaoz..

it seems that its coming back.. am still in the office at this hour.. i dun wan to go home to an empty house with 2 dogs.. (this is the same feeling that i had almost 1 year ago) what is happening??

i can't stop crying whenever HB talks to me on the phone.. i miss him sooooooooo much.. BUT i also know he is stressed and pressured.. i know that i had unknowingly placed pressure and him but i really can't help it.. i am fragile.. very very fragile.. :~~~(

SOmeone pls help me.. i need to talk.. but no one can understand.. If i talk to the wrong person.. or confide in the wrong person .. the person may tell me that.. u are crazy.. u just think too much.. till now i can't think of anyone to talk too except my sis.. but.. she is still angry with me.. i have no one to turn to :(

tell HB also no use.. he will ask me "what u wan me to do den?" which i also dunno the answer.. den he will feel more fed up.. i can sense that he is fed up and had enuff of my nonsense.. to him to others its nonsense.. i feel that i have pre-natal blues! HELP~!!

Sigh.. baby is coming soon.. i believe baby will be a wonderful thing for us.. but i am also scared that we will drift further apart.. i suppose its just me.. cos no matter how HB assure me.. i just can't should i say trust.. or just can't rest assured!! i really going crazy soonzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!