Hi .. sorry for not updating for long.. i have a lot to think.. alot to settle .. a lot to manage.. at a point of time.. i even tot of dying to get finanicial help .. hahaha.. that means die liao.. den my family got insurance payout.. h ahahaha..

ok.. thank god that everything is over now.. settle good and fast... i really wanna lead a smooth life.. i can't take any of the "shit" already..

as i am typing now.. dunno why my heart beat very fast.. :( seems like something gonna happen or got some undone things.. dunno why .. really.. feel very uncomfortable.. :(

hmm.. seems like heartache.. hahaha.. well.. I dun feel loved from HB.. i know he loves me .. but i dun feel it.. u know woman.. Sigh... a complicated creature.. hahaha..

last nite went to pray pray.. the medium said a lot of things lor.. oh.. c'mon.. its not wat she said that effects me so much.. but its gets me thinking.. that we husband and wife keep quarrelling.. and HB is very stubborn.. and den after that went home.. i know my mum also 1 kind lah.. but she keep talking and talking non-stop like no need to rest like that one leh!!!!! den even my ears also cannot take it.. den HB complain n complain lor.. i also dunno how to handle.. just defend lor.. i know its not right.. but wat am i suppose to say?? next time i will jsut keep quiet..

I realise that after i tone down my stubborness hor.. HB become very stubborn leh!! til i also can't tahan.. sure quarrel again soon one.. :( he is just like me last time lor.. assume things and den wan his way means wan his ways.. I wanna talk to him abt it.. but dunno how also.. Sigh.. talk already den he ask me.. u wanna quarrel again huh?? WTF??? well.. nvm.. i "ren"

Love is patient, love is kind. Love is understanding, love is forgiving..


Really got a lot of things to think of... old house.. new house, CNY, baby's birthday, maid go back.. R/s probs... arrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh why my life so F ???

BUT THANKS GOD IN THE NEXT LUNAR YEAR WILL BE A VERY GOOD YEAR FOR ME!!! and am looking forward to THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna have lots of saving.. slim down lots.. etc..